Worries....

Why am I worrying?  I'm in beautiful New York - sun, shopping, amazing sights, friendly people, food (wow - think I'm going to put on quite a lot of weight out here! I guess that just means more shopping so that can't be bad!) 

I suppose there is so much to think about and take in.  It is all a bit overwhelming.  The consultation on Monday was great and the effect on my speech was instant and dramatic.  However after a couple of hours a fair number of stammers did creep in and it took a lot - as always to control them.  That's ok - I've stammered all my life, I'm used to stammering, it's no big deal but I don't want another short term quick fix.  To get my hopes up only to be dashed again.  I just don't want to be a person who views their life through their stammer, always concentrating on controlling and modifying their speech.  I'd rather just get on with life.  Hopefully I can find the balance. 

It looks like the 'Speecheasy' will be another step of my journey and not the final chapter.      

 

posted on 09 June 2006 16:14 by HeidiKing

Comments

09 June 2006 20:52 by NickiDoherty

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hey babe, its natural to worry. uncertainty can always bring fear but you need to remember that your still heidi no matter what happens. life's too short to not enjoy it so have a great time while your there and give it a go. love you lots xx
13 June 2006 10:56 by GemmaPendleton

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Hello Heidi,
Well it's taken me about a week to work out where your blog is and another week to work out how to post a comment :-)
I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and hope all is going well. Can't wait to read more about your progress and to see you when you get back.
Love, Gemma xxx
13 June 2006 11:58 by VickyPotter

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Hey Heidi

I'm glad your enjoying New York. I understand why you are worried and I hope everything works out how you want it to, but never forget you are a fantastic and lovely person who just happens to have a stammer, it really does get sidelined by your huge personality! I am very pleased to have met you and I am looking forward to seeing you when you get back.

Take Care Vicky XX

P.S Graham sends his best wishes and recommends Cafe Luxemburg on 70th or 71st street, just round the corner from Amsterdam Ave
16 June 2006 12:34 by Eamon

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Hi Heidi
I think this sounds like positive news - even the bit about putting weight on!

Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
The gang at the office.